A shoulder to lean on

Going away for sometime. I miss being happy, miss laughing out loud until my stomach hurts. Looking out of the window reminds me of you. You re all the untold happiness of mine. When you appear in my thought ( most of the time )
tears comes along.
Out of the corner of my eye, I caught sight of an apparition. In the train, there were two lovers-a guy and a girl right beside my seat. I watched their interactions with one another. The girl leaned on the boy shoulder. They were in their own little world. It just hit me. Ouch !  Wish i atleast had the chance to see my other half before i leave. Unfortunately, it never happened. The pain in my heart was excruciating yet beautiful. Death was like sleeping without dreaming. I waited for something more to happen. A light to shine . An angel to appear and take me away. Suddenly, my heart whispered ! Wake up sleeping girl..
It took me a minute to assimilate what had happened. What i felt was only his invisible gaze. It was so pleasing.

Life is NOT a bed full of roses

I read all the fairy tales, watched movies with romantic couples but to me it always seemed like a dream never come true. When something good happens, a change will come along. I couldn't understand. I didn't realize sometimes fate is the hardest choice of all. I waited so long to be free from the pain of my past, just one more chance and I could be gone forever,shed my skin to be someone new and start fresh somewhere.
Yet, this is an act of fate. A miracle. It's me who has to decide whether to walk away or surrender to a force far greater than me.
Knowing that when it mattered most of all, I wasn't brave enough to risk it. I looked at him and knew there would be nothing easy about our destiny.

And everything in me is screaming to run, it will be worse if I stay..

There was a time i didn't believe in destiny

I do.. Especially when you hum the song that plays in your car.. 

You're the inspiration for my writings

Although we're not together every 12th of the month I will wish him our monthsary through my prayers. The Lord knows how much I adore him. Usually people says beautiful things always happens unexpectedly. Well, I agree. By hook or by crook it did happen ! Six months back the moment our friendship took a step ahead and became a beautiful relationship.. hmmm.. nono, it became a bond, an intimate BOND between us. Now that's called destiny !

 You kissed me ! I know, he said. I'm sorry,i will never do it again. He grabbed me gently and lifted my face to look at him. His face moved closer to mine. My heart raced. "And again he moved even closer". I've never seen a pair of eyes which is as pleasing as his. No guy had ever made my pulse rate race that fast. I'd never felt this much desire. His gaze landed on my lips, then reached to meet my eyes. My heart sped out of control. I shoved him. He inched back. I stared at him and he stared back. I said this isn't right thing. His eyes twinkled. I started to story him about what is actually bothering me in reality. He stopped me and said "you're the only one I want, NO MORE EXPLANATIONS ! That second I forget everything and said yes I do love you. Cant mask my feelings anymore. He pulled me into him, his arms encircled around me in a tight embrace. He kissed my forehead gently. My breath was becoming uneven. He held my face in his hands,gazing at me. And HE said this will be forever..

I was endowed. I vowed to myself to be his strength through thick & thin till I'm alive.
Happy 6th Monthsary, my inspiration

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tmNbVdYst2w

I'm Sorry

Because when i look into your eyes, I see HOME.. that's the only reason i refuse to give up on you easily

You Smile, I Melt

When I turned around and saw him I jumped slightly. His presence was unexpected. The smile on his flawless face automatically drew a smile on my face no matter how hurt I was. Not every human owns this magic. He does. His eyes landed on mine. His long lashes melted me. Warmth swam through my veins.His gaze made me feel incredibly alive. His expression was somber, but his eyes smiled. His voice was melodious. CANT ASK FOR MORE! He moved closer to me and ran his finger down my arm. That was pitch perfect like 90's love songs. All I heard was my heart beating out of control. I asked myself:

 "Do you know what is magical? And she whispered  "  THIS MOMENT" .. 

Literally ! It was like a beautiful transition between daylight and night time. I was at the edge of falling again. But this is what I want. If something went wrong, and this didn't work out, I couldn't possibly conceive of an idea as beautiful as this. 

My spirit out to fly

Is it a crime to be happy? I was about to hit the delete button on the passive part. Sitting at the back of the classroom wondering on how i could get over this?  Because i learned that homosapiens out there would thrive off my weakness. My heart had been toyed with. It is a bittersweet tragedy like a shakespearean role play or something like Romeo & Juliet.
I found tranquility in the loneliness.Before i capture him to my future, he flew away. I took a moment to imprint his image in my long term memory 😔
Thats all remained with me in the end

Those little things that meant alot to me

You exactly know what i want 😘

HIS faint smile

He gave me a partial smile. Remember ? We' re not lovers.. & you are not gonna be my better half
At that moment, i heard the sound of shattered pieces of my heart and my stomach flopped
I went back staring the world outside of the window. What was I thinking? Fault in my stars? 😔
Maybe we shouldn't be here, but then?
Hmmm.. he wasnt even my boyfriend. But this was the peaceful place on earth. And he was a grand possibility. I wanted him to look at me and say years from now i wish we will make it together till we grow old
😐
I knew this was something that I wouldn't be able to let go

Sometimes we regret the chances that we took too long to decide

HEAD OVER HEELS

YOU ! YES YOU ! MY MR IDIOT.. The very first day i met you, never knew you will become my everything. WE never ever dream of it. But destiny brought us together. Life seems to be a little more beautiful when you stepped in. 12/06/2015 

 You never noticed the tears of happiness in my eyes and soul when i said yes i do.
That was the moment when i actually realized that , Damn i really love him !
I saw the little smile on your face the day i officially proposed you, (first time in my life)
you hugged me tightly and said this will be forever..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=016lrxQD3r8