A shoulder to lean on

Going away for sometime. I miss being happy, miss laughing out loud until my stomach hurts. Looking out of the window reminds me of you. You re all the untold happiness of mine. When you appear in my thought ( most of the time )
tears comes along.
Out of the corner of my eye, I caught sight of an apparition. In the train, there were two lovers-a guy and a girl right beside my seat. I watched their interactions with one another. The girl leaned on the boy shoulder. They were in their own little world. It just hit me. Ouch !  Wish i atleast had the chance to see my other half before i leave. Unfortunately, it never happened. The pain in my heart was excruciating yet beautiful. Death was like sleeping without dreaming. I waited for something more to happen. A light to shine . An angel to appear and take me away. Suddenly, my heart whispered ! Wake up sleeping girl..
It took me a minute to assimilate what had happened. What i felt was only his invisible gaze. It was so pleasing.